I was just reading a passage from a book by Sally Kempton called “Meditation for the Love of It.” It is a wonderful and insightful book. I especially like the tone of the writing, which is quite peaceful and has a sense of gracefulness or something calm and delightful to it.
I’m finally breaking open new territory in the way that I live my life. And by this, I mean my literal experience of living, of being alive from moment to moment.
I was kind of brought up to be hyper focused on outside validation, or some type of external goal being more important than other things.
I’ve been switching that recently because I’m not focused on living my life toward very tangible goals, at least not anything tangible enough to be recognized by others.
So, naturally this has been quite a switch for me. To go from getting plenty of social acknowledgment, to an alternative that is about my actual worth and my actual felt experience in the moment.
A lot of my experience in the moment that I am attempting to cultivate is about a hearty sense of well-being. I find that superficial things, such as a focus only on social acknowledgment, tend to crumble. This is an awful feeling. If my entire focus is on the superficial, thin surface of life, and then that crumbles so easily, I feel like the world is falling apart if that has been my only focus.
In a totally different way of living, I am capable of having groundedness and a sense of being “at home” where I am, with a strong center of balance that rests on my inner state of being.
Of course, reading Sally Kempton’s wise words is very encouraging. I do feel like I will try to follow the nudges from Shakti energy that Kempton writes about so fondly.
My focus in life these days is to cultivate a rich inner life, based around meditation and other related practices, such as shamanic journeys too most likely. I also want to keep developing my arts and craftiness through a few crafty projects that I have planned.
When I focus on inner states of being, life can take on rich qualities that I hardly even knew existed before. I still have moments when I crumble with the superficial focus, especially when I visit my hometown. It’s a awful feeling of tense expectations that I can never live up to.
The good part is that, more and more, I can live in different ways that enhance and encourage these meditative states.
Thanks for reading! Wishing you well on your own path.