a crystal ball please

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today i'm jealous of c-sections. i'm envious that they know the day and time of when that baby arrives. me... i have no idea. today i feel like i did with abby.  i feel large and full and expectant. i stand up and my tummy is tighter than a drum and feels like it's below my ankles.  i watch tv at night with ty feeling the contractions wash over me in practice.  today i'm wondering how my uterus migrated up to my arms and made them swell like the michelin man.

but i digress.

yesterday my doctor told me to pre-register with the hospital and took the strep-b test. he also informed me that he will be out of town until june 1st. now, ty and i don't want to have this baby until after june 9th, so that doesn't really sound like a dilemma. right? right.  except i've never had the same doctor deliver me. and i'm attached to this one. my brother bill told me it's weird to "like" your lady parts doctor. but he's also not a woman.  dr. lunt was there with abby.  he knows our history, he's funny, kind, chill, lets me do what i want and i call the shots (hmm, probably the reason i like him).

he also laughed when i said i want to make it to 40 weeks. knowing my luck i will deliver while he is gone because i want him to be there. i want reliability, i want a familiar face. i want what i want and i want it my away. too much to ask?

it's weird, at this point with phoebe i was off bedrest and ready for baby.  but today, i'm basically crossing my legs and fingers.

even though i've done this three times, every delivery is different. i have absolutely no clue how  how long this rollercoaster is going to take, or how it will twist and turn. will my water break again? will i have back labor or regular contractions? will i have a clueless nurse? or a nazi one?  luckily ty won't have any homework to get done this time around. but will the girls be ok? will the baby have birth defects? still born? down syndrome? autism? special needs? hair? teeth?

most it a BOY or a GIRL?  i've forgotten that it isn't hypothetical anymore. there is one or the other in there.

but as i sat in the waiting room i saw a chart above the sink labeled "Pregnancy Hormone Levels".

i'm sorry to say that i'm riding that wave right as it peaks. so maybe blogging isn't the smartest idea in the world.

but in good news, this baby was a huge faith building experience for me. i have not had one ounce of medicine, and i've made it so far. 36 weeks tomorrow! i've been able to take care of my kids, and husband and house and church callings. shoot, i even taught aerobics till 6 months along!

i have so much to be grateful for. and i'm going to focus on that.


Tiffany said...

Pregnancy is so nerve-wracking isn't it? I think and worry about all of those same things too. I bet you guys can't wait to know if it's a boy or girl!

As for the natural childbirth preparation thing - I'm not doing a whole lot to prepare for it other than I've read a lot and watched some natural birth videos online. We'll see if I can actually do it when the time comes, ha! I'm not huge on birth plans because things can change in a moment so I am hoping for a natural delivery but not 100% set on it, if that makes sense. I would have liked to take a Bradley method class but it was $200 and didn't work with Isaac's schedule. I have thought about doing the hypnobirth homestudy but once again, $$$. :) SO we'll just play it by ear and hope for the best! What about you? Have you done a natural birth before? I have but it was on accident so I'm totally doubting myself!

Anyway - sorry for the super long comment. Good luck keeping that little one in past 40 weeks!

Jordan and Jandee said...

you are so funny. so you. love it. fingers crossed the baby waits to make their debut until Dr. Lunt is back.

Trent & Tara said...

don't EVER be jealous of C-Sections. But you are always wanting what you can't have. I really wish I could push a flipping baby out of me. Sheez.

Trent & Tara said...

p.s the top cave like man/ pregnancy lady photo makes me never want to be prego again...he he

Whitney Baldwin said...

Delivering one of those babies that have a full set of teeth is one of my biggest nightmares.

Hope that your little one decides to keep baking until your doctor gets back!

my name is becky kelly said...

hahaha, cracking up about trent and tara's caveman prego picture comment! hahaha.
thank heavens for no c-sections! I obviously don't know any different, but i'm guessing that I should prefer NOT to have c-sections :) but like you said, it sure is nice to plan and go to the temple with your sweetheart one last time for awhile :)

Vyanca said...

I've had 2 c-sections and never made it to either of the scheduled dates, had my last two babies at 36wks. So I have to say it's not fun at all having csections!!

Annie Leavitt said...

the only nice thing about c-sections is the scheduled part of it. i'm not jealous of anything else- unless they throw in a tummy tuck in for free : )

oh man vyanca! that's not fair at all.

audreyspencer said...

I would be nice to "know" but I would do anything not to have a c-section! I was close with Lane...lots and lots of last minute complications. But, it helps to have a Dr. that you completely trust...hopefully your Dr. is around when you deliver. Good luck! Can't wait to hear if you have a BOY or GIRL (my girls were so much easier as babies)!

Tam said...

I love the uterus in the arms part. Totally hear ya there. I feel like a pregnant Weeble or Little People doll. Why do my cheeks, chin, butt cheeks, back, love handles, armpits, ankles, elbows, etc all have to pretend they're pregnant too? Best of luck with the remaining weeks and delivery (and beyond of course, too).

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