10.07.2012

i left my kids for 48 hours

do you feel guilty leaving your kids? sometimes i do, and sometimes i don't.  The first time I left my kids I almost chewed my arm off with anxiety. This weekend, I most definitely did not fee guilty. It was one of those, "if I don't get out of the house there will be dead bodies by Sunday" kind of months.  I know all you moms are feeling me right now.

Seeing as I'm not pregnant or breast feeding (and don't plan on either happening anytime soon) I've been doing a little bit more for my work. Yes, I work, although, it doesn't really feel like work. I still teach Zumba 3 times a week and it's awesome. But I wanted to get some more training under my belt. So to San Diego I go! Danna graciously went with me, and held my hand as I was numb most of the time.  It is such a strange feeling having little bodies all over and around and on top of you 24 hours a day, 365 days a year, and then...nothing. No little bodies, grubby hands, bums to wipe. It was just me. It was so quiet I was freaking out like monkeys at the zoo when it's feeding time. Jumping everywhere I was.  Every baby or little kid I saw made me think of my own. And I was so happy to tell people that yes, I have kids! They would ask, how many? And I would gladly say "I have 4!"  And you know what, their eyes would completely bug out of their heads. You're not in Utah anymore Toto. I might as well have said I have snakes for hair. Probably would have elicited the same reaction.

But I digress, I took my camera, and took no pictures. Nada. None. We had a fun and quick time together (minus the migraine-poor danna banana). I slept like a log both nights-and even slept in till 8am today. HOLY SLEEPING IN BATMAN. I can't remember the last time I slept in that long.  At the training I had a great time learning and I've got a lot of work cut out for me in these next few months. Plus, I can't wait to go back to San Diego with Ty and the kids. Beautiful, even though I only saw about 16 square miles of it from the hotel to the training.  Can I tell you though, almost everyone had tattoos. Seriously, almost every girl age 20-30 had tattoos on them. I really felt left out of the club.  Ok, not really, but still. I couldn't stop staring at this mermaid one. Mermaids, roses and horses. Mmmhmmm, totally get it. PSYCH.

In other words, I'm home, it's Sunday night and I can't wait to make out with Ty tonight. Did you know, absence really DOES make the heart grow fonder?  Too legit to quit.
*the week after the wedding i had the most gorgeous flowers and roses all over mi casa. i love fresh flowers.
**i'm trying to not be lazy in my typing anymore and capitalize. Dudes, it is hard to remember!
***my nephew dj is 18! and driving! and voting!  i can't believe how old they are all getting.

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