I was a baby. My oldest was a baby. Ty was young, young young. We were happy, and young, and delirious, and... living in lala land.
Sometimes, and very rarely, I see new moms and I covet. The crisp, fresh baby clothes. The non-stained burp cloths and blankets. The energy they have! The dreams! The motivation! The hair bows and clips and planned "outfits". The clean strollers and organized diaper clothes. Who am I kidding? I was never like that, but I still covet that lifestyle sometimes.
Ty, baby Lucy, Me 2005 |
I do covet that simple life though, I think our internet was so slow we only went on at night or on the weekends. Photos were still developed, no texting, it was a more quiet time. But inside I wasn't quiet, I feel like I am much more relaxed and easy going than then. I know, you're thinking that would be impossible because I'm still extremely high strung, but believe me. Those were the days when I would cry and pout when I wasn't getting my way. ha! What a joke.
I don't have a lot of regrets (other than yelling) about being a mom, but it's a process. That poor oldest child. She has been more than patient with my mistakes and mishaps.
When I see these pictures, I don't even know what to say. It honestly feels like an entire lifetime ago.
Baby Lucy and Me, 2005 |
1 comment:
Oh, Annie, this just what I needed today. Tell me, did you ever overcome being a yeller? I think I started yelling when my 2nd was born. Effective Parenting to a toddler, right? I hate myself when I lose my patience and yell. It makes me want to thrown in the towel on motherhood and go back to work full time bc there I can be nice to perfect strangers, when I can't be nice to my own kid. I'm thinking I'm way too high strung for this motherhood gig. I'm ready to stop after 2 kids. The thought of having 3 kids makes me want to puke. :) for some reason I feel like you can sympathize. Any sage advice? You can FB message me, too. :)
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