wanting less

School started and everyone was "ok" with it. Not too happy, but not very sad either. I think everyone was ready to get back into a routine. My hardest part about sending kids to school? Lunches! I don't know why, but I absolutely detest making lunches. Or supervising the making of lunches. Or buying things to go in lunches.  Alas, food is important so I better suck it up on that one.

In other news, my numbers are almost to zero! So in a week I should be finally "un"pregnant. Which will be nice to be done. I was hoping this would be my last draw today, but I'm always given opportunities to have my patience grow. Right? Right? ugh.

Sunday we attended Uncle Taylor's birthday party and it was wonderful to see everyone and watch the kids play around. My favorite part is when we watch home videos, and we watched a lot of them this time. Taryn, if you weren't the cutest little girl I've ever seen! Oh!!  Some of them are strange, because things are the same as when I started dating Ty. Like couches, and cars etc. That is really weird to me, Ty and I have been "together" half of our lives now. Half!  

I also have been interested in paring down my possessions and keeping the house streamlined, well, as much as possible. I still want a good couch (not my dream couch! just a good one) for our family room, and some bookshelves. But other than that it's just little things that need work on and make the house "me".  No desire to have more of anything. When we watched the home videos Ty's parents were our age, and I noticed, there house was just, normal. That was really nice to see. Today, well, my mother in law's house is gorgeous. Like, Better Homes and Gardens gorgeous. It's a wonderful and peaceful place to be and visit and the kids love it. I so want my house to look and feel that way, but we are young. Our kids are young, we've only lived here 3 years. A lot of these years have been difficult, and hard for me mentally and physically.  There is a time and season for all things.  I think today most young couples have very nice "things' and furniture and clothing and I know I am an "instant" gratification person myself. I want it all and I want it now.

But if anything this last month has taught me, is that it doesn't really matter what we want. If it isn't aligned with what Heavenly Father wants for us, it will only bring confusion, sadness and unrest.  When I choose the better path, and try to align myself with His will, I feel peace, and happiness.  I want that for my house. I want that for my family. I want other people to feel that in my home. Someday I will have my dream furniture and I'm sure by then I'd rather have little children running around my house again with peanut butter sandwiches instead of an Ethan Allen sofa.